Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Nani is going

The last time I met her, she was on the hospital bed. Surrounded by less life and more life supporting devices, she looked frail and tired. In a condition when something had infected her brain, she could recognize me. I tried to speak to her, invain. I kissed her on the head and left.

Ever since that they, there has been a fear of losing her. God forbid, but the one that day felt like the last kiss. For the first time in the last three years, she looked exhausted. A fighter that she is, she has faced and fought the deadly cancer in its face. Three years was a long time.

Everything about her has changed, but her beauty. Ironically, she still had that glow in her face - aura i may say. Those hands which have served us food a zillion times looked so tiny. The color of her eyes too had changed, they weren't even looking at me.

Now that the doctors have closed the files too, we know there is not much time. The image of nani - loving, caring, scolding, pampering us keeps coming in flashback dreams. Today as she breathes, we pray for her next breathe, pray that she meets the almighthy in wellness and sees no pain. Pray that she bids adieu in comfort and peace.

Nani, wish this was not inevitable. God bless.


Ravi said...

Hi Shweta,

Just stumbled upon your blog through your twitter profile.

I know how it feels.

In 2004, I spent 5 months with my grandmother in the hospital and took care of her 24x7.

Such was my attachment with her that I left my job, just to be with her in her last days.

It's so ironical.

We are so busy in our fast corporate lives that we don't have time for those who have shown us how to walk. talk and understand the world!

I was pretty close to my grandma as my parents were never there around me in my growing-up years.

Reading your article today brought back all those memories of me as a toddler, spending quality time with my sweet old (late) daadi...

May God bless your Nani. My prayers are with you, mam.

Take care!


Shweta Baxi Tyagi said...

Thanks for your prayers.

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